Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Fear

I am scared. Scared that this new baby who I have yet to meet will take time away from my first baby. Scared that I won't be able to love the new baby as much as I love my first baby. I am dealing with the second fear, but still feeling the first one strongly. I am so worried that my baby girl will be hyper aware of the time that the new baby takes her Momma away from her. I am afraid that she will feel less loved and that will translate into bad feelings in her head. I am scared of so many things.

I know that so many parents have done this before me, and many more will do it after me, and that everyone says that you just make room to love and you just make time for each of them, but, somehow I just don't understand how baby #2 can make you feel as much as baby #1, but I hope that all of these fears are unfounded...I guess we'll see.

This post says what I am trying to say so much better than I can...she really captured the feelings...this one too...

1 comment:

Her Bad Mother said...

They make you love your firstborn even more. Your heart not only expands to include the second, it expands to love BOTH even more than you thought possible.

The expanding hurts, a bit - but it's a good hurt. xo